My Music Related Goals for 2018

Ah, the “new year”. A time of new beginnings, creating resolutions that you don’t intend to keep  ( or begin with good intentions) or, just another day with a new digit at the end.

Just as most people in the westernized world have gotten used to the idea of New years resolutions, I tend to use it as a preprogrammed reset point. However, I have gotten rid of making set resolutions and have decided to create reachable goals and a plan of shorter goals to get there.

2017 was a strange year as far as successes and setbacks. I composed my first Successful film score, Won a couple of Toastmaster’s Speech Contests-and thus improved my public speaking skills, paid off a good chunk of my student debt (more on that later) and managed to make some music with some good people along the way. However, I also got into a car accident, held 3 jobs at one point which exhausted me mentally and emotionally to the point that I had to give up two of them at various times in the journey of 2017(though rather than throwing a pity party, I did something about it darn it!), and don’t feel that I accomplished enough composing wise for my own personal satisfaction. That being said, I did manage to create some which are always a success and luxury I suppose.

Big Goal1)-Create more income….

…to pay off my debt faster BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO BE A SLAVE TO THE LENDER and, I  just want to work for myself DOING MUSIC within 5 years. This plan involves paying off my student loans in 3 or fewer years from January 2018, all the while preparing for the big plans in years 4 and 5.

This was a goal that I started working on in 2016. Coupled with my selfish desire to create my art and try to work in the industry that I got a degree in, I got a job at a music store and added that on top of my Manufacturing gig and Receptionist gig at the beginning of the year to increase income. I had hoped to transition to working full time at the music store eventually and also teach there like some of my co-workers had been. After January, I moved to “Part-time” between working reception and the Store, hoping to get good enough that I could work full time.  However, at that time, I was not realizing that I would need to make more in base pay to justify this goal financially, the schedule was not conducive to what I neede to do to build myself personally at the time, and that I needed to build more experience teaching before thinking that I could even ask to teach there. Also, past fears (More on this in a future blog post) had prevented me from trying this in the first place back in my not so far away college days. The eventual almost full-time schedule (just short of getting benefits), having no weekends or days off for an extended period of time (plus driving in completely unpredictable pre Superbowl road construction traffic ranging 23 minutes to an hour and fifteen minutes each way some days), along with some other factors put a level of psychological stress on me that I just broke. I went down to only the receptionist job back in August, realizing that I need to recover (and that this is the job that could pay the bills, provide the consistent schedule that I need, and that I  can happily do a good job).  However, I learned a heck of a lot of what I need as a person to be happy, healthy, and most importantly stable, and there are some days I miss it, minus the schedule and driving chaos of course. These were my mistakes and lessons of 2017.

Mini Goal-Start Selling my Music

I don’t expect to make a lot but at least I am getting started.Recently, I  Followed John Mackey’s advice and (Surprise!) I registered as a publisher with ASCAP in order to secure 100% of the funds as Coffee Seal Music for my self-published works. My calendar is filled with re-engraving schedules for my best works and will be released one by one. I also plan on approaching others about distributing these works once I have a few more ready to go by the end of March. Then, the advertising begins.


As stated before, I avoided this in college as I felt that I was not worthy since I opted not to be an education major. I was also afraid of taking jobs away from those who I felt deserved it more. I have since come to the realization that I am in fact a capable knowledgeable musician (hey, I pushed to make my teachers expect the same quality of work as the Ed. majors at least from me on my instrument) and that I enjoy giving people one off lessons (which included the Brass Pedagogy students as well). Also, several people out there teach privately without degrees, the few educational music talks I’ve given in Toastmasters have gone very well, and I love enriching others lives so why can’t/shouldn’t I? In addition to increasing my income, I hope that I can write better music for students in the future from this learning experience. Time will tell if it is meant to be.

So far I will start by teaching piano lessons in my apartment or, if it works out, 1-2 evenings at a local school.

Mini Goal -Keep educating myself and pick up some side gigs.

I will keep reading personal finance blogs and asking around for potential side gigs. 2018 is going to be busy.

In the End, All extra Money after Savings and Bills will go toward the loans because it’s preventing me from doing what I really want to do with my life-Creating Music with and for others and being stable enough to give more.


Big goal 2): Create More on a consistent basis.

This is pretty self-explanatory, especially since I fell short last year.

Mini goal-Preparedness

This year, I will put my calendar to use. It has scheduled times to create.

Also, I’ve made List of Blog and Social Media post Ideas for a rainy day and as another mini goal, I aim to post something at least once a week to start with. This is a good first benchmark for me and as I succeed in doing this for a few months, I will aim to add more like two posts a week, then three, etc).

My next mini goal and addition to making sure that I am creating on a constant basis is that I will be doing a Thing a week challenge with my good friend and fantastic artist peer  Annaliese Torella. More on that Soon.


Big Goal 3) Work on anxiety issues associated with creating and becoming a member of my musical community.

I have realized that most of my anxiety comes from my own trait of annalizing everything in a given situation and second-guessing myself often as a result. Additionally, It has been a few years since I’ve had constant guidance on making decisions that affect a career (something that I know many artists struggle with once leaving school). This does not help, especially as I become paralyzed with an overwhelming amount of choices and sometimes wind up doing nothing as a result. Also, being perceived the wrong way and misjudged permanently scares the heck out of me, which has prevented me from taking action too many times before now.

Mini goal- Get over my anxieties related to looking for work

Right now, I’m reading Break Into The Scene by Seth Hanes, which gives a good battle plan for finding gigs, giving back,  and even how to email strangers, one of my biggest fears. I will be trying out his advice in future interactions.

Mini Goal-Get out and interact with the community more

I am doing this by Picking something from the list that the American Composers Forum emails with local events and attending at least one event or concert every 2 weeks.

Additionally, Every Friday morning before work, I will be emailing someone each week, even if it is just to say hello, or, in the case of releasing music, to bring it to someone’s attention who may be interested. I hope to get better at this as time progresses.

Lastly, the ACF is graciously helping me (Seriously, these guys are that awesome!) find a  tutor for a few lessons  as I am offering to barter my skills from copyist work to pet sitting and Yard work, in order to have more of a grounding of which direction I should go and narrow my choices down a bit for next years goals.

Eventually, I want to do my art on a full-time basis, so why not use this year to start with the baby step of semi part-time. Also, maybe if I get out there, I might get some gigs to help fund my financial goal as well!



Overall, I feel that I am still bumbling like Alex Shapiro said she did for many years but I’m doing my best and have last years habits and lessons under my belt and this years plans ready to adhere to the best of my ability.


What are some of your 2018 goals, music related or otherwise? Please let me know in the comments as I would love to hear about them.

Third Wheel Trio Concert Video Share


Hello everybody,

Here is the video from the March 25th 2017 Fifteen Minutes of Fame Third Wheel Trio concert.

My piece is third on the program. The third Wheel Trio did a wonderful job with “Lonely Waltz” and the other composers pieces are a joy to listen to as well.


What’s New, Early 2017 Edition


Hello Everybody,

A lot has changed in the eternity since posting here, but I will  try keep it short. For those that are wondering, here is what is “new” in my life.

-Recently, I left one of my day jobs, working in the factory. It took a lot to leave, as the company has overall been good to me and the paycheck was helping me get ahead on my student loans. However, the longer I worked there and between the other jobs, the less time I had to be myself and do the one thing that makes me feel whole: music.At one point I was putting in 70 hours between the places and was becoming severely depressed and moody, which is not at all like me. After much forethought and planning, I finally took the leap of faith last week.We shall see how this pans out, but for now I will be splitting my “work to pay bills” hours between working at Schmitt Music (where I’ve already learned a lot in s short while!) and the Office, and have a new daily routine to Get Stuff Done with my composing and work toward the goals I set for myself long ago.

_ I am on Twitter (more regularly) Now. Please follow me @Shogan_Composer. Yes, I will still update the Facebook page as well, but you will get some commentary or content that you might not get to see or laugh at on my “professional” page. Plus, the challenge of coming up with clever lines in 140 Characters or less is quite a bit of fun.

_ A New Newsletter! This will not only include news on upcoming pieces or other composer related business, but will also have some info geared towards helping you. These could be book recommendations, new music by other composers, Info on helpful Podcasts/ resources, and other things. Also, I promise not to spam you with constant email bombs and plan on posting every 3-4 months or so. By the end of the month, I will have a link up to sign up. For now, please contact me with interest,or keep checking  the site or my  Facebook page for an update.

_Brass Sight Reading/ Arranging Group: A fellow Trombonist and I have started a Brass Get together group where members arrange and/or compose music for each other ever 2-3 weeks.We are hoping for it to evolve into something bigger over time, but our goal will always be to create a supportive environment for brass players and composers to try out their stuff (and keep up their sight reading chops).

If you are in the Twin Cities Area and are interested in more information, you are welcome to contact me with questions on the contact page.

-Recent success:

My Lonely waltz was chosen by the Third Wheel Trio for the Fifteen Minutes of Fame call. It will be premiered on March 25th in Glenndale CA.

-Pieces in the Works!

  • I am working together with composer Zae Munn to write a piece for her student chamber group, with flexible instrumentation, which will be premiered this Spring.
  • Winter Ice is in the process of being orchestrated and added to for Vibraphone (2 players) and Alto Flute.
  • A bass and violin duo is also in the works. Stay tuned for more in the near future.


Additionally, Website tweaks are finally being made. Keep checking back for updates and thank you once again for visiting the site!

Composer Quest Olympics: Closing Ceremony and Final Thoughts


Well, it appears I have hit the end of my week long “spamming” of Composer Quest Olympics Blog posts. Many thanks to anyone who read any of the posts and/or listened to my fellow Olympian’s pieces.

This was an extremely fun, enlightening, and welcome experience and I am grateful to Charlie McCarron of Composer Quest and Michael Maiorana for organizing this challenge, the American Composers Forum for hosting the ceremony for making it possible to meet some of my peers in person,Ryan Udairam and Tom Snively for collaborating with me to complete some challenges, Eric Ebeling for taking on the Sneezeburger,  and  I am humbled by the fact that some of my peers voted for my music in these events. Congratulations to all of you, as well as  the composers who participated!

The closing ceremony was held live, last Monday 11/21, at the American Composers Forum. You can view the Final results on Charlie’s website and view a comprehensive list of All of the submitted pieces by clicking this link.


My original intent was to partake in all of  the events as a challenge to myself in order to improve.  I ended up with a few new relationships in the composition world, a new drive to learn more about how to compose electronic music (so that I can perhaps do this myself one day and collaborate with even more people),  and even a few medals.

Also, I will forever cherish the memory of our small group, huddled like a cult, listening intently to tuba solos .:P

Note to readers of this post: If you are interested, here are the links to my past posts about these individual events.

1)National Anthems

2)Table Tennis



5)Relay Race

6)Composer’s Choice


Composer Quest Olympics: Challenge Number 6

Our last challenge was called Composer’s Choice. We had the fewest amount of restrictions,  and were only instructed to write a piece on an Olympic event of our choice.

Originally, I had this plan devised to represent the pentathlon. It involved writing 5 one minute pieces of varying styles within a 24 hour span. However, on the one day I had available to focus on executing this project, I got sick, so that put the Kabash on that.

As a backup, 48 hours from the deadline, I chose cycling as my event of choice.


For this event, I first drew up a sketch of the imaginary course in my notebook and came up with a melodic ostinato. The ostinato represents the speed of the pedals as the biker runs the course. I also tried to pick a circular series of notes that would cycle back logically. As the course changes, so does the rhythm of the bike pedals as they turn. The clarinet represents varying scenery and elevations.file-nov-27-1-39-43-pm

Though this course would probably take a little bit more time to complete if constructed to scale, I compressed it into a piece under 2 minutes to respect everyone’s time for voting.

The biggest hurdle for me was the lack of restrictions. Personally I like restrictions because too many choices  when starting can be overwhelming and the restrictions somehow help me be more creative, but I digress.  Regardless, this challenge was a lot of fun (and the rush to finish the piece left me on a runner’s…er Cycler’s high).

My fellow Composer Quest Olympians came up with some fantastic pieces as well. This was the most difficult for me to choose which one to vote on,mainly because there was such a variety and everyone who participated went all out. Please enjoy listening to them by clicking here.

Composer Quest Olympics: Challenge Number 5



Challenge Number 5 was the relay race . Charlie organized us into  teams of four, and we were to compose and pass off our chunk of music like a baton to each of our team mates. The result would be a 2 minute piece with each person having written 30 seconds of music.

Due to extenuating circumstances, two of our teammates were unable to participate, so Tom Snively and I “cloned” ourselves to make up for the missing teammates. This process began an email storm that was not unlike the one that Ryan and I had during the  Table Tennis Challenge. We also ran into many of the same file sharing problems as well.

I started with the first thirty seconds and decided on choosing flute, vibraphone, harp, piano and cello, mainly because these in instruments sound decent on my playback, tend to to be common sound options, and I was unsure how the other team member were going to go about composing. Though my choices were motivated by an attempt to pick instruments likely to be universal to both classical and electronic styles of composing , in retrospect, I was lucky to go first because of my current lack of experience composing outside of Finale, and routing new (non acoustic) sound fonts through the program may have delayed progress on the piece further.

Musically, I challenged myself to get outside of a comfort zone once again by composing something a little less melodically flowing than usual, and tried to make it feel frantic/ race like, while leaving the end of my section open for the next composer.

The most difficult part of this challenge was getting organized with team mates. Not everyone was able to respond promptly, so it turned into a waiting/ guessing game for a bit. After it became apparent that Tom and I were the only ones able to participate, it was much easier to coordinate. Admittedly, none of us attempted to contact the other until I sent an icebreaker email a week and a half before the deadline (in a panic I might add). If one of us had a bit earlier, it  may have solved a few problems in retrospect. However, life happens and I do not think anyone on the team should feel too guilty about this.

My favorite part was listening to what Tom came up with as a response to my submission. Working with composers who have a completely different composing style as you is a lot of fun, especially when you don’t know what to expect. What he sent was very imaginative and complimented the piece nicely.It gave me a bit of a rush because, as soon as I received his response, I wanted to begin composing mine. Unfortunately, I was at work and unable to get to it until the end of  the day. Due to differing schedules, that also created a bit of a delay, and it came close to the wire as far as getting it submitted in time.

All in all, I think the result sounds great. Tom does a fantastic job at sound engineering  and created the final rendering of our piece (thank you Tom). You can hear his music at

As always, please listen to the other team’s pieces for this event  by clicking here.



Composer Quest Olympics: Challenge Number 4

For the fourth Challenge, Hurdles,  Charlie provided a lead sheet that we were to compose around. The chords represented the hurdles in this challenge.

When I first approached the lead sheet, I played the chords on my keyboard as best as I could. At first,I cringed because the first chords sounded like every popular cliche soft pop song that becomes an irritating ear worm (think Don’t Stop Believing, You’re Beautiful, ect). Being horrified at this realization,   I thought about how I could keep this piece from following these cliches and writing something that sounds like everything else.  Perhaps that was an unintended part of the  challenge.

First, I changed the time signature from 4/4 to 3/4 as most of those songs are in 4/4. After experimenting at the piano with the allowed chord extensions to color these chords, I put them into Finale. Originally I had the default instrumentation set to flute and piano. I listened to the playback over and over again until I came up with a flowing melody line that I could sing back.

After transcribing this melody, I listened to it and realized that it just did not sound right to me with the Midi playback. Just for fun, I went into the instrument list and experimented with the available instruments for playback. I settled for the Recorder with Music box accompaniment The piece, now sounding more lullaby like with these changes, was named Gently Obstructed Lullaby. The obstructions are the seemingly oddly placed chords (aka hurdles) that almost interrupt the predictability of the melody.


There was a  surprisingly large variety of treatments to this chord progression and I enjoyed listening to how others avoided the cliche as well. You can listen to the other Olympian’s  hurdles pieces by clicking here.


Composer Quest Olympics: Challenge Number 3

Aah Weightlifting: aka Challenge number 3. This was an interesting one indeed.

It took awhile to decide just how to accomplish this task, mainly because I knew I wanted to create the piece as a scribble and doodle, as the 30 second* time limit  for unaccompanied tuba fit my already established guideline of no more than one page. Most of my scribbles and doodles seem to be food themed and I did not have any Tuba solos available, so why not combine the opportunity with the project? Also, I wanted to write something a little out of my comfort zone that would also challenge the I mean professional Tuba Player, Eric Ebeling.

In the end, the piece ended up being an avant gard performance piece that I called Lifting a Sneezeburger.  It goes up to a High F..the usual but forbidden upper range  limit of most tuba players I’ve met, but I thought that, because it was  weightlifting challenge, the scalar/ intervalic passage would be befitting. Also, I call for the player to act out the scene  by huffing and puffing at this ludicrous attempt at lifting a 500 lb cheeseburger and even include a “tuba sneeze” at the end.   Sadly, because we could only be provided audio recordings, you can not see the performer acting out the instructions, but Eric did a fantastic job and it is easy to imagine what is going on.

Kudos to Eric for tackling this barrage of solos from us and for being a good sport with this particular Scribble.He definitely earned a medal after reading all of our pieces.

Good news for anyone Curious about these Creations and any Tuba Players who might want to try this particular Scribble out. I offer these pieces for Free (though I would appreciate any notifications if you choose to perform them in public)!!! Please visit the Scribbles and Doodles  page for more information.

*Most composer’s solos ended up taking more than 30 seconds upon real person playback..including mine. The tempo is marked “free” though it was just under 30 seconds when played back on the notation program.

As always, the other composer’s creativity has shone through, especially with the titles. If you want a some entertainment this afternoon, please read these titles and listen to the music.







Composer Quest Olympics Challenge Number 2

The Second challenge issued to us composers was titled Table Tennis. In this challenge, we were randomly  paired with another composer and we were instructed to pass the piece back and forth, ping pong style.I was paired with Ryan Udairam, a fellow Twin Cities based Composer.

Upon alternating emails to figure out what process would work best for us, we discovered that we don’t live that far from each other.  Our process ended up being that we would pass the piece via XML file as we both use different versions of Finale. Because of the way that we interpreted the directions (which may have been different from Charlie’s intent in retrospect), we agreed to pass the piece every 2 measures, allowing any random time signature change when it was our turn. We each picked two Instruments. Ryan picked Erhu and harp and I picked Alto flute and Crotales.

One of the main difficulties with this challenge was the fact that my current version of Finale is getting a bit ancient and was not interpreting the XML files properly.To remedy this we also began passing pdf files so that we could at least correct things visually to get a better representation. Also, I had to use my imagination a bit since my sound pallet unfortunately does not include the Erhu.

In the end, we almost ran out of time so we agreed to meet in person at an I hop in order to finish the piece. We still obeyed the rules (after all, Charlie did not specify that we could not meet in person to pull this off) by passing Ryan’s computer back and forth like a ping pong ball, making sure to use headphones. After 3 hours, gallons of coffee, and a lot of stares from people who probably had no idea what we were doing, we finished what we ended up naming Koi Fish’s Last Struggle.

Overall, it was a fun and interesting experience co creating a piece like this. Guessing at what direction another composer is hoping you will go and deciding if you will go with that or change direction is what was the most enjoyable aspect of the challenge.

This challenge resulted in some interesting pieces and I urge you to listen to the others works by following this link.

Composer Quest Olympics: Challenge Number 1

In August, I decided to partake in the Composer Quest Olympics Challenge. For Awhile now, I have been listening to Charlie McCarron’s insightful podcast called Composer Quest, while I build printers as a way to educate myself while working a  day job .  Charlie sometimes releases challenges to his listeners to create projects that he calls Composer Quests. Until now, I had been too intimidated to submit anything . Sadly, he is wrapping up the podcast, but as a last hurrah (in addition to his World Tour), he has devised this multi challenge Composer Quest inspired by the Olympics and Bryan Schumann’s thing a week challenge. I  chose to push myself to partake in all of the challenges in part because it is the last one (and thus my last chance to try it in real time), because I am trying to break my introverted habits of finding every excuse to not share my music with strangers (and avert the anxiety that comes with it) and  as a chance to get to know/ collaborate with fellow composers (and again get over some anxiety that comes with talking to strangers).

The first challenge was to pick a national anthem and arrange it in any way you choose.

After hours of listening to find the right one for me, I settled on Nepal’s National Anthem,”Sayaun Thunga Phool Ka” (Made of Hundreds of Flowers).

It is one of the more recently composed National anthems and, according to my Fiance, it has a bit of a Pirate flair to the melody. I chose it in part because I liked the melody and because I find the country’s history intriguing.

The Instrumentation I chose is  Flute, Trombone and Piano. I wanted to make it playable by real people and to represent the diversity of people that live in Nepal by picking an instrument from each family.

Arranging this anthem inspired me to do  bit of research on Nepal, so here I will leave you with a link to this fun Infograpic with a few interesting facts about the country.

Also, Charlie has graciously organized all of the participant’s pieces into free downloadable albums. I encourage you to listen to all of the compositions created for this event (not jut mine). You can listen to and download the first album here.